What if I were to die today,
With people being reduced to binary statuses,
Alive or dead, within minutes, everything so evident,
Live now, no guarantees of tomorrow, said one quote,
Which I never believed, I knew, I would stay alive for a long time,

And if I don’t behave, would be left penniless, just alive,
But now it all seems to fragile, chances are too high,
To die,

Right before the pandemic, I was in Europe, studentship amount,
Enough for me explore, live around places, different countries,
Six months and a whole lot of holidays, but it was effort to manage,
Solo travelling is not as fun it might seem on paper,
Also practically I had thought, why not save it for the loan to be repaid,
But can I please, do all that effort again, and learn to manage it all,

Can I travel to another country, and live there like a local again,
Best way to travel through places is living through them,
So, many cultures to be seen, lived through, friends to be made,
Too long it would take, no I don’t want to accelerate,
Monuments don’t impress, the idea of family, a loving one, is great,
But what’s awesome is starting off alone,
And finding people to love you the same way,

No no I am not saying calm travels, I am suggesting random ones,
Scary, too much effort ones initially, but ones you fall in love eventually,

So many years I would need for that, do I have all that?

Some impact, someone helped, someone alive because of me,
And that’s the thing I love about research that improves lives,
You could start off with trivial of foundations, and end up making a change,
Years ahead, for someone out there!

All of that might take more than a little time, and I hope it is saved somewhere,
To be spent, to be spent going over papers over and over again,

And specifically, a little more to lead my parents everywhere, to all the places,
And maybe into a home around these places, the way they would want it all,

Some more, to climb through all the peaks,
Maybe complete the mountaineering course first,

Some more experiences please, for me to be at least a charming enough ghost,
So death, looks like you surely got to wait for it all to be resolved!